St-Jean 2018

St-Jean 2018. Just woah. It's hard to describe all the emotions that I went through in a single night.

La St-Jean-Baptiste or La Fête Nationale du Québec has always been an important part of my life. La St-Jean is a day to celebrate Québec’s French culture and language.


Two years I reconnected with my College friends that I hadn't seen for 9 years! We went to the show in downtown Montreal. The atmosphere was electric.

The year after, I spent the day with my boyfriend and one of my best friends at an attraction parc. Afterwards, we had a soirée/party among friends. I got a bit upset that year but... let's not talk about that.

This year was definitely the best. It might be the best in my life, to be honest.

It started out in a relaxed way sitting and waiting for the rain to stop under our umbrellas. As the evening progressed we went closer and closer to the center stage.

Bands that we liked started playing and we were right near the barriers. I think the only time I've been this close to performers was when I was working backstage for Freshmen Week in University.

However, it rained and rained and rained. This made the set up between bands even slower and the wait was long. I was looking forward to seeing Loco Locass. My all-time favourite Québécois band.

Vacation Relaxation

Vacations can be stressful for me. I like everything to be planned. Absolutely everything. I make myself an itinerary to make sure I do everything everything on my list.

Most of the time, I get it all done and feel satisfied with the outcome but in no way do I come back to work relaxed enough.

This year, my vacation was mainly for appointments. I think I must have had an appointment or a blood test every other day.

Routines and Plans

During my teenage years, I attended a Day Hospital. At the Day Hospital, I did schoolwork, did sports and attended therapy groups. One of the therapy groups given revolved around cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT).

We learned something that has helped me ever since.

Routine.

Sticking to a routine really helps me. It helps me organize my day. It helps me get rid of anxiety because I know approximately what is happening next.

I feel secure adhering to a routine.

Negative Nancy

Let's face it. I am a Negative Nancy. I am able to turn any situation negatively. About a month ago, my boyfriend told me about this great restaurant he had been to. He wasn't even able to tell me how the food was delicious and what he had chosen to eat that I started ranting.

 I told him about the girl who worked there who I thought was a superficial attention-seeker (when I did get to know her, I realized how mistaken I was). I told him how I did not like her and all the instances she had hurt me. Side note: I talked to my sister about it and she said the same thing about not wanting to eat there.

He stopped me there.

Self-care. Self-love.

I’ve been feeling down in the dumps lately. In a previous post, I mentioned how hard it is for me to be held back. I realize I’m being redundant here but bear with me.

I decided to take matters into my own hands. I decided to take care of myself.

Caring for yourself comes through many different forms. Somethings work for others while some don’t. 

To get you inspired here’s what works for me.