Vulnerability

So many of us are vulnerable. Even if society tells us that it’s important to be strong and feel empowered, being vulnerable is okay.

It’s okay not to have control over your emotions. Not to have control over events. It’s okay not to always feel composed.

I believe in embracing my emotions, even the ugly ones.

At the moment, I’m scared of getting my hours cut next summer. I’m scared of getting replaced.

Osheaga 2018

I’ve always wanted to go to a major musical festival and, this summer I did! I went to Osheaga which is, by a stretch, our Montreal version of Coachella. Ok, really by a stretch. But to give you an idea there were 45,000 attendees per day for three days.

And I was one of them.

My friend and I bought the tickets on a whim. We were on a terrasse, having a beer, and one of us said: “I’ve always wanted to go to Osheaga”. We both thought, well, why not?

The Scare of Underperforming

N.B.: This was written a week after my salary increase. I just never got around to posting it.

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As some of you may know, I got a salary increase. I did not ask for it. It was a merit-based increase. I was told that I went above and beyond my required tasks.

I was ecstatic.

However, right after the increase, I got scared. I was scared of underperforming. I was scared that I wasn’t good enough for my new position.

And... I started making stupid mistakes.

St-Jean 2018

St-Jean 2018. Just woah. It's hard to describe all the emotions that I went through in a single night.

La St-Jean-Baptiste or La Fête Nationale du Québec has always been an important part of my life. La St-Jean is a day to celebrate Québec’s French culture and language.


Two years I reconnected with my College friends that I hadn't seen for 9 years! We went to the show in downtown Montreal. The atmosphere was electric.

The year after, I spent the day with my boyfriend and one of my best friends at an attraction parc. Afterwards, we had a soirée/party among friends. I got a bit upset that year but... let's not talk about that.

This year was definitely the best. It might be the best in my life, to be honest.

It started out in a relaxed way sitting and waiting for the rain to stop under our umbrellas. As the evening progressed we went closer and closer to the center stage.

Bands that we liked started playing and we were right near the barriers. I think the only time I've been this close to performers was when I was working backstage for Freshmen Week in University.

However, it rained and rained and rained. This made the set up between bands even slower and the wait was long. I was looking forward to seeing Loco Locass. My all-time favourite Québécois band.

Vacation Relaxation

Vacations can be stressful for me. I like everything to be planned. Absolutely everything. I make myself an itinerary to make sure I do everything everything on my list.

Most of the time, I get it all done and feel satisfied with the outcome but in no way do I come back to work relaxed enough.

This year, my vacation was mainly for appointments. I think I must have had an appointment or a blood test every other day.